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Psychotherapist Nica Selvaggio on LGBTQIA Mental Health

An Interview with Psychotherapist Nica Selvaggio

Dominica (Nica) Selvaggio, LMHC is psychotherapist at Seattle Anxiety Specialists, PLLC. Nica has experience working with clients on a wide variety of issues, including anxiety disorders, eating disorders, substance abuse, sexual orientation and gender identity, acculturation and systemic oppression related to race and gender, trauma and PTSD, mood disorders, personality disorders, self-harm, relational issues, and attachment struggles.

Jennifer Smith: Hi, thanks for joining us today for this installment of the Seattle Psychiatrists Interview Series. I'm Dr. Jennifer Smith, Research Director at Seattle Anxiety Specialists. We're a Seattle-based psychiatry, psychology and psychotherapy practice specializing in anxiety disorders. I'd like to welcome with us today, Dominica Selvaggio, who is one of the psychotherapists at our practice. Nica has worked as a therapist for roughly a decade in the Seattle area and works with adults and adolescents aged 13 and older. Before we get started today, can you tell our listeners a little bit about yourself?

Nica Selvaggio: Yes, and thank you so much for the introduction, Jen. I'm really excited to be here talking with you today. That's always such a broad question. I never know where to start, but I guess that is the place to start that from a very young age, I was diagnosed with ADHD, and so my inability to pick where to start is a reflection of what I deal with in my brain. I love being a neurodivergent therapist because it brings a sense of understanding and compassion for folks who struggle with this sort of tangential thinking or not knowing where to start, that I find really, really helpful and I just get a lot of joy out of it.

So all that to say, I'm your local ADHD therapist. I'm originally born and raised in Chicago, the Midwest, and I've been in the Pacific Northwest for most of my adult life. I did spend three years living in Hawaii, and that was a really life-changing experience. And ultimately, I came back to the Seattle area because this land really has my heart.

Jennifer Smith: Wow.

Nica Selvaggio: I always describe myself as someone who's incredibly creative and just a lover of nature.

Jennifer Smith: That's great. And so you moved to the Seattle area from Hawaii. So what would be your favorite parts of the Seattle area, or just Washington as a whole?

Nica Selvaggio: It's the land, it's the mountains, it's the water, the plant life, all of it. I always say because of growing up in the Midwest that I was raised in corn and concrete. So when I moved to the Pacific Northwest and saw these huge mountains for the first time, even after a decade of being here, I'm still in awe. Yeah, I just really, really love the landscape.

Jennifer Smith: That's great. What is it that got you interested in being a therapist?

Nica Selvaggio: Big question. There's this storyline of The Wounded Healer that I think a lot of us are familiar with, that archetype of someone who has gone through their own experiences of pain and suffering, have tended to them, and then turned that compassionate attention outwards towards others who are struggling with similar wounds. My story as a therapist is not so different from that. I became interested in working in mental health out of necessity of caring for my own mental health throughout my life.

I'm a former foster care survivor and an adult adoptee, and so I had exposure from a very young age to some of the suffering in the world and in my own world and experience. So walking that path has really led me to wanting to provide a hand to hold for other folks on their own paths.

Jennifer Smith: Wow, that's really fantastic. Thank you for sharing that. What areas or disorders do you specialize in, besides ADHD?

Nica Selvaggio: Well, I got my start working in the clinical world specializing in eating disorders. So the bulk of my career was spent working in high acuity treatment centers, inpatient level residential, partial hospitalization, intensive outpatient, and working with folks who struggle with things like anorexia, binge-eating disorder, bulimia, ARFID, avoidant restrictive food intake disorder, which is often accompanied with neurodivergence. And when you work with eating disorders, you work with everything.

So people often think of eating disorders as being about literally food and body, and while those are absolutely components of a person's experience with an eating disorder, it's a symptom for an underlying issue. And often what underpins eating disorders is trauma, depression, anxiety, huge contributing factor, and other ways that the brain is sensitive. So for example, someone on the autism spectrum might really struggle with their sensory experience with food, be labeled with having an eating disorder, when really, it's something that's going on in a sensory way for them. It's not accompanied by cognitions and things like that.

So that's the bulk of my experience and I could talk about that forever. But because I'm an ADHD person, I have a million interests and my path has diverged many a time from that foundation of working with eating disorders. So through that work, I found my way into the somatic world in treating trauma because trauma is a huge underpin of most folks with eating disorders. And I got my foot into somatic experiencing, which is working with folks more so through the visceral felt-sense experience of trauma held in their bodies and helping them to let go of it rather than talking the story to death, which can be re-traumatizing for folks at times. Absolutely has some value in reclaiming our narrative and making meaning. However, I found working in the body to be a lot gentler.

Through that world, I found my way into psychedelic assisted therapy. I did a fellowship last summer in Jamaica, working with mushroom assisted therapy, and I've done a couple of trainings in San Francisco for ketamine assisted therapy. So that is a world I'm very interested in. And then gender and sexuality. So I'm non-binary. My pronouns are she/they, and working with trans folks, working with gender sexuality came out of working with eating disorders as well because those populations tend to struggle with eating disorders, body dysmorphia, those sorts of things at a much higher rate than the general population.

Jennifer Smith: Wow.

Nica Selvaggio: And then from there, add in interest in couples work, sex therapy. So a little bit all over the place, but a really strong foundation underneath all of it.

Jennifer Smith: Wow, that's fantastic. And basically that means you can help a lot of different people, which is really great. Your online bio notes that you've been trained in several evidence-based approaches. Can you let our audience know what those are?

Nica Selvaggio: Yeah, and I'm noticing in myself through this interview, I'm talking very fast and not breathing very much because I'm oriented to my own body. I'm going to take a moment and just take a deep breath before I answer you.

Jennifer Smith: Yeah, absolutely.

Nica Selvaggio: Thanks. And if anything-

Jennifer Smith: Oh, I was just just saying-

Nica Selvaggio: Yeah, go ahead Jen.

Jennifer Smith: That's great for our audience to see too. You need a moment, take a moment. There's nothing wrong with that, and I think we could probably all do that at times and we just don't, unfortunately. And then we feel awful.

Nica Selvaggio: Well, we're not really given permission to in our culture and our systems that we operate in.

Jennifer Smith: Yeah, which is unfortunate.

Nica Selvaggio: Yeah. Which ties into that question a little bit about what evidence-based therapies I work with. Most of them I learned when working in treatment settings. So in a lot of eating disorder treatment centers, the foundation of the treatments are evidence-based therapies such as dialectical behavior therapy, DBT, which was developed by Marsha Linehan, and that was a therapy originally developed to treat folks who struggle with extreme emotional dysregulation who are feeling suicidal or are diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. So these extreme swings of mood and inability to regulate.

Off of that came... And that approach is really good for folks who are... The temperament under controlled. So under UC versus OC, under controlled versus over controlled, so more impulsive behaviors, you're going to see things more expressive. You might be able to tell I'm more on the UC side. DBT is great for that. And then on the other side, you've got OC, over control. Those folks are going to have higher levels of generally OCD type thinking, more restricted, flat affect, much more wanting to control their outer experience because their internal world feels so chaotic that it reflects on the outside. In those folks, you're going to see things more like anorexia, restricting behaviors, much more flat affect.

RO-DBT, radically open DBT came out of DBT to help over control folks. So those are two different therapies, even though they have the same name in them, but essentially they're both skills-based therapies that are laid on the foundation of mindfulness and some of our Eastern inspired practices. So as well as another evidence-based therapy that's used a lot in treatment centers, ACT, acceptance and commitment therapy by Stephen Hayes. But these therapies are really trying to bridge the worlds of that grounded mindfulness foundation with concrete skills that people can use to actively change the behaviors that are causing them distress in their lives.

I love a lot of those therapies so much because they work, they can really shift things quickly. I often use those in conjunction with therapies that maybe don't have as much of a robust research base because they haven't had the time or the funding or whatever it is, such as somatic experiencing and more experiential therapies. I went a little bit all over the place.

Jennifer Smith: Thanks. And what about your treatment approach? What's that like?

Nica Selvaggio: Yeah, so I was trained in a clinical mental health counseling master's program and the foundation of my training and program was person-centered humanistic therapy. So for folks who don't know what that means, my foundation of who I am as a clinician, as a counselor is very much through the egalitarian lens of I am not an expert in your life. You are the expert in your life and I'm coming here to join human to human to witness and perhaps equip you with skills that you need in order to change the things that you're wanting to change.

That said, that's the foundation I weave in depending on what a person needs after collaborating with them on what sort of therapy they're interested in working with, all different kinds of approaches. So again, the somatic work is a huge part of my work, bringing in the body. I also do a lot of parts work, internal family systems, and for folks not familiar with that, that involves accessing the different parts of ourselves that are often in conflict. Everyone has different aspects of self that they might connect with at different times. The part of me that's doing this interview with today is my manager part, right? I'm going to present my best self today, but maybe my inner child part is like, "This is scary. I don't like talking in front of people that I can't see." That's an example of parts work.

Who else? Again, super interested in growing more in the psychedelic assisted therapy world. It's really profound powerful work that can really jump start a person's journey, but not to be used without caution and a lot of discernment and support. Yeah, it's just different for everyone.

Jennifer Smith: That's fantastic. I'd like to go back and talk about one of the areas that you can help clients with, and that's regarding their sexual orientation and gender identity. And I was reading on The Trevor Project’s website that they offer 24/7 free, secure access to counselors for young people who are LGBTQ. In a nationwide survey that 41% of LGBTQ people age 13 to 24, so the younger range, seriously considered committing suicide in the past year.

So clearly something's going on here that's severely impacting this population's mental health. So I just have a few questions regarding this, that maybe you can shed some light on.

One is, what types of issues does someone usually struggle with regarding their sexual orientation or gender identity?

Nica Selvaggio: Yeah, I love this question. Thank you for asking this. And first I want to name... I always experience a lot of heaviness in my body when tapping into the sense of powerlessness or hopelessness that comes in for a person to feel like the best option is to end their life, that they've exhausted all of the avenues and this is the best way to escape the pain that they're experiencing when that becomes the option in their brain. This is for so many different reasons and ties to what a lot of folks in the LGBTQIA+ community struggle with, which I want to differentiate that struggling to know what your sexual identity is or your gender identity is, is not in and of itself a pathology or an issue that someone's struggling with.

What people are struggling with is how the systems in the world, how our culture, how our families, how our religions, how all of these things reflect our worthiness of access to resources, safety, the right to use the bathroom in the public. Our daily lived experiences of oppression are the issues that we struggle with, not the fact that we are part of the rainbow community.

So that being said, because of operating or living in a system that... And I can give so many examples of it's February 1st and how many anti-trans legislation bills have been pushed forward this month in January alone? The visceral, physiological, emotional, spiritual, psychological response to being faced with that. Those issues can look like suicidality, that can look like depression, that can look like anxiety, that can look like a nervous system that's chronically stuck in fight, flight or freeze because they're in survival mode because the world is reflecting to them that they're not safe.

Things more classically associated with folks in the LGBTQIA community are things around identity formation. How do I know who I am? How do I put a word or a label to who I am? Do I even want to do that? Is there even a necessity for me to come out and name myself as such? Where do I fit in and belong in this LGBTQ community? How do I move through the world in the straight world? A lot of identity formation issues in that. And again, that's not an issue of pathology in and of itself. Culture's response to that question is the issue.

Substance use is often higher. Again, this is a way of coping with all the things that I've named and eating disorders and body dysmorphia tend to be much higher incidences in the trans and LGBTQ community.

Jennifer Smith: Wow. And eating disorders too, they're often highly correlated with suicidality, correct?

Nica Selvaggio: Yes, yes. Can be. Not all, but yeah, they tend to be.

Jennifer Smith: Wow. Another question I had is often when you're doing paperwork now for a medical provider or surveys, they ask about someone's preferred pronouns. And can you talk a little bit about that, preferred pronouns and how can that affect someone's mental health? Why do they matter? Why do pronouns matter?

Nica Selvaggio: Yeah. Yeah. And I love how you changed the sentence at the end. Why do pronouns matter? Because even the language of preferred can insinuate that it's someone's choice in terms of... Okay, how can I put this? If you knew that the sky was blue and someone came up to you and was like, "You're nuts. The sky is not blue. I see yellow, and you are bad and wrong for thinking that the sky is blue. How could you?” Take it a step further: “You're going to a bad place because you think this sky is blue."

And then I said to you, “Well, you just prefer it to be blue.” Is that a preference or is that just what you see? So a person's preferred pronouns implies that it's an actual preference, when in reality, it's just their lived experience. And so when someone is vulnerable enough to even name their pronouns, even if we don't understand, even if we think the sky is yellow, the reason it's important is because it indicates a level of belief that that person understands and knows themselves better than we could possibly know, their internal experience.

Jennifer Smith: Right.

Nica Selvaggio: It indicates respect for their beingness, and it creates a level of safety for that person who may have moved through many different systems in their life where it was not accepted or not safe for them to use the pronouns that fit for them.

Jennifer Smith: That's fantastic. Thank you. One anecdote that I wanted to share is that in our practice, we were trying to decide internally, "Should we all put our pronouns in our signature block?" And I'd say one-third were gung ho for, "Yes, we should." One-third didn't care. And there were other people who didn't want to, and one of the members of our team said, "Maybe we shouldn't do this, because if a person isn't comfortable saying what their pronouns are, we're forcing them to either disclose their pronouns or force them to put stereotypical pronouns that you would think that they should be.” And for me, that was really eye-opening.

So for that reason, I went on the bandwagon of I'm not putting pronouns. That way, if someone else didn't want to, they didn't feel like they had to as well.

So I thought that was really interesting, that pronouns can really mean so much to a person and just... Yeah. So thank you for explaining that, that it really does matter.

Nica Selvaggio: Yeah, absolutely. And I love, thank you to that person who brought that point up because that's always what I like to... Oftentimes when we're trying to show up as allies in support of a community that we're not part of, it's easy to misstep and to do things out of good heart and good intention, but ultimately can contribute further to harm. And the pronouns in the bio or in your email signatures requirement is one of those ways where it's like, "Oh, we're trying to help normalize it for everyone." But again, you don't know who you're requiring to out themselves or to live falsely.

Jennifer Smith: Right. That's fantastic. And that's why part of the reason that we do this series is to help educate people and just explain things. Thank you.

Nica Selvaggio: Yeah, thank you.

Jennifer Smith: Yeah. So what can you say to people who simply might not have any understanding or have confusion about what we've just been talking about and just don't understand the distress that some people might have about identity or orientation or pronouns? Why is it a big deal?

Nica Selvaggio: Yeah. I always come back to why do we need to understand? I don't even understand myself. Why do I need to understand another person's experience for their experience to be legitimate and valid for them? I don't. In fact, it's often impossible to try. I can do my best, but I can't ever fully step into another person's experience. And so we don't actually require understanding. We require respect and compassion, just to be believed. Right? And you can compare this across many different experiences of identity. I will never know what it's like to walk through the world, say, as an Arabic man, I don't know what that is.

Jennifer Smith: Right.

Nica Selvaggio: It's not for me to try to understand. It's for me to listen and believe and provide respect. So first throwing away that word understanding, we don't need to understand. What I would say is have you... I would invite folks who really just don't get what the big deal is about to reflect on if there's ever been something in their own life that was really important to them, that they really cared a lot about, but that was dismissed or diminished, or they were told that they were foolish or crazy even for caring about that thing.

And we can do this together too, but just to take a moment and really call to mind that feeling, that memory and see what happens inside. So I notice immediately I start to contract, I start to constrict, and I start to want to feel small and to hide myself. Other folks might have a different experience. Maybe they feel angry, they want to fight back. There's no wrong response here. Just notice how do you feel when you're invalidated, misunderstood, and told that you're wrong to care about the things that you care about? Generally not pleasant.

So when we show up in that way, we're often perpetuating more of the same for people around us. If we've experienced that, then we're going to put that out on others too. Like, "Well, I had to conform. I had to shut down this part of myself, so how dare you not do that?" Right? We face a lot of anger from folks oftentimes as a result of that. Yeah. And what would the world be like if we had more spaciousness for those pauses to actually feel into, what am I reacting to in my not understanding? Am I being reminded of a time that I didn't feel understood? How can I show up in a more compassionate way?

Jennifer Smith: That's great. Thank you. Our final question, which I'm a little bummed to say because I thought this has been great. Do you have any words of advice or anything else that you'd like to say to our listeners today?

Nica Selvaggio: Be gentle with yourself. Working as a clinician, as a counselor, as a therapist, through some of these major world and global events that we've been experiencing collectively over the past decade, something I've noticed in the broader populations is that levels of fear are very high. Anxiety is very high, which makes sense. And levels of burnout, feeling like we just cannot continue on are very high. Levels of trauma and secondary trauma are very high.

In the midst of all of that, I want to invite all of us to both stand in the center of honoring and witnessing our sacred human struggles together, and also find those spaces in which things feel a little bit lighter, or we can expand more and access things like rest and pleasure and resilience, and that both of those things need to coexist in order to show up in a more whole way. So gentle, gentle, gentle, gentle. Show up when you can. Rest when you can.

Jennifer Smith: That's fantastic. Thank you so much, Nica, for finding time to speak with us today.

Nica Selvaggio: Thank you for having me.

Jennifer Smith: And for our listeners, if anybody is interested in scheduling an in-person or telehealth appointment with Nica, you can do so and self-schedule at seattleanxiety.com. Thanks again and have a great day.

Please note: The views expressed by the interviewee are for educational and informational purposes only, are not meant to diagnose or treat any condition, and do not necessarily reflect the views of Seattle Anxiety Specialists, PLLC.


Editor: Jennifer (Ghahari) Smith, Ph.D.